Excruciating Agony: A Personal Battle Against the Puzzling Suffering of Cluster Headaches

It began on a gloomy weekday morning in September 2016. I worked as a teacher, trying to settle a new group of students, when a intense pain bloomed behind my right eye. It was followed by quick shocks, reminiscent of lightning bolts. As each class progressed, the discomfort subsided and then came back with increased force. Multiple times that day I handed over a colleague with activities and hurried to the school bathroom to douse my face with cold water. I tried ibuprofen, but the agony remained unbearable.

The headaches returned repeatedly that autumn, and once more in spring, soon forming an annual pattern. September and October were the most severe, then February and March. I could predict the routine: a warning sensation in the shower, early pangs on the train, full-blown agony in class by 9.30am. In 2019, a GP eventually referred me to a neurologist and I was given a diagnosis with cluster headache disorder.

Cluster headaches often start with intense pain behind one eye that persists for several hours.

Approximately one in 1,000 individuals suffer by the disorder, and men are more frequently diagnosed. Attacks typically start with sudden, severe pain focused on a single eye that peaks within a short time and lasts for as long as three hours. Episodes occur in cycles, every day or several times a day, and are accompanied by tearing eyes, drooping eyelids or facial perspiration. There exists the episodic form, which occurs in seasonal bouts; some patients have continuous attacks, characterized by the lack of long pain-free periods.

What connects sufferers is the intensity. One study scored the sensation at 9.7 out of 10, more severe than bone fractures or pancreatitis. Another discovered a significant percentage of cluster headache patients experienced thoughts of self-harm during bouts; the number dropped to four percent when they were not in pain.

One patient, in her seventies, a chronic sufferer from Pembrokeshire, finds this understandable. Her attacks started when she was two. “I would throw myself on the ground and hit my head. That was put down to being a difficult child,” she says. Her symptoms deteriorated through her youth. Drinking in her teens, like many triggers, made things more intense. After drinking alcohol at her school leaving party, she recalls hardly being able to see on the transport home.

Her family often mistook her attacks as drunken behavior. Support finally came from her parent and then from her husband, Rod. “I was very lucky to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs found office work after moving, but often hid her condition. She was fired from one job, in part due to time off during attacks. Her breakthrough diagnosis came in 2002 at a national hospital.

Nevertheless, the inability to plan daily activities around unpredictable attacks took its effect. She particularly hated being unable to plan social events, being seen as flaky as a colleague, and even having to be cared for by her family during the paralysis caused by the worst episodes. “It robs you of the simple freedoms we don't appreciate until they're gone,” she says. She remembers winning tickets for a major concert, only to have an episode inside a portable toilet.


Headaches have been described across history. “The earliest description of headache comes by way of the Mesopotamians in 4000BC,” write authors in a publication on the topic. They attributed the ailment to an malevolent entity who afflicted his sufferers' heads.

Ancient medical records propose bizarre remedies for what modern observers would describe as a migraine. In the medieval times, severe headache was recognised as a separate condition, with treatments ranging from herbal concoctions to other, more superstitious remedies.

It was a European physician who provided the first detailed description of a cluster-type attack. In his writings, he speaks of a patient “afflicted with a very severe headache happening and vanishing each day at fixed hours”.

The disorder were only officially classified by global medical societies in the late 1980s. From the 1960s to the 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a issue with a key blood vessel which delivers blood to the brain. Prominent experts in treating the disorder note this.

In 1998, scientists published the findings of a study for which they had triggered cluster headaches in patients and observed the attacks in a imaging machine. The data, featured in a prominent journal, showed increased activity of the hypothalamus, which is responsible for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in discomfort, and a deactivation when they recovered.

In spite of such advances, diagnosis remains delayed. One man's attacks started in the 1980s and felt like “a balloon being blown up behind my left eye”. Doctors thought he had sinus problems; he underwent four surgeries before eventually being diagnosed in recently, after a doctor looked up his complaints.

Specialists say wait times in diagnosis and managing happen because patients are rarely seen mid-attack. “You're exhausted and depressed, but not in severe pain,” one says. He proceeds by ruling out other primary head pain conditions, such as migraine, before confirming cluster headaches. A thorough patient history is essential: on which part of the head do signs appear? For how much time? What season? Are there triggers, such as certain foods? Specific characteristics such as tearing, drooping eyelids and nasal congestion help verify the diagnosis. Once identified, patients may be referred to specialist clinics. But a lot of first go to emergency rooms or are given unsuitable treatments.

A charity trustee, 78, has experienced the condition for most of her adult life, although she hasn't had an attack since 2016. When she was in her twenties, she had her teeth extracted because dental professionals misunderstood her pain. She thinks dentists still need greater education. When another patient sought help from a support group, it was Chapman who replied. I remember calling a support line during an attack in 2021; a calm advisor talked them through oxygen treatment and medication until the episode eased.

Official guidelines on treatment recommend that patients are offered high-dose oxygen and/or a anti-migraine drug delivered by injection. No oral painkillers or opioids should be used. Prophylactic options include verapamil, which apparently soothes the bouts of well-known people.

But leading neurologists believe the guidance need revising to reflect a more defined treatment process and help general practitioners avoid misprescribing. For episodic patients, the treatment window is everything: “The length of the cycle dictates the treatment.” Short bouts with infrequent episodes are managed with abortive treatment only. More prolonged or more intense bouts require preventives such as certain drugs, sometimes paired with steroids. A significant number of patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a cycle – an procedure into the side of the skull where the pain is that reduces nerve activity.

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Melissa Williams
Melissa Williams

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